In less than a week I will be 31 years of age. How the Hell did this happen?!! Seriously? The past decade is seriously like a blur to me and most of that blur is the beginning of it. I remember 20, 21 even most of 22 but what happened to the rest, I really don't remember being 26. Was I abducted? Maybe. Or it's very possible that I spent those years worrying and stressing about things that didn't matter (obviously, or I would remember them) and not spending time in the "now". In my defense I had no idea about living in the moment then. I was too caught up in my head I'm sure. I don't know if it comes with maturity or with having a child but I see things a lot differently now and try my best to live in the moment as much as I can. Emma Anne helps me to do that. I feel that I have grown so much in the past couple of years and it brings me to this question:
How is the person you are now different from the person you were a Decade ago?
10 yrs ago I was Jackie Suzann Steele and was completely full of myself. I was just about to turn 21. I had already had my fair share of alcohol by then so it wasn't that big of a deal that I was turning that age. Now I could just buy it. I was pretty stoked about going to bars and clubs. I was careless and was making horrible decisions. I was experimenting with many drugs and my priorities needed to be checked majorly! I was working as a Bartender at Marie Callender's (yes this one had a full fledge bar, weird I know.) and living with my boyfriend and his twin brother. There was no structure in my life, no goals. It was just whatever happened, happened. Unfortunately things got worse before they got better.
The person I am now is so much more responsible and more caring of other people. I have learned how important structure and scheduling is and that you need to set goals for yourself. Never stop striving to be better. The person I am now, if given the chance, would go back to the girl 10 yrs ago and would help her to better herself instead of if given the chance would go back and party my ass off. That's saying a lot for me and I'm proud of it!
Speaking of living in the moment yall must read the book A New Earth, Awakening to Your Life's Purpose by Eckhart Tolle. Oprah did a huge production about this book, so you probably already know about it. It will change your life, for the better.